... continued from last time.
It was like having Vaseline wiped from my eyeballs.
Amidst the upheaval of getting and quitting a job I hoped would save me, three people emerged to say, "I want you to be my coach. Where do I sign?"
When I told my dad I quit, he said, "You had to do it to learn that just isn't you anymore."
Then two friends texted, "I was wondering why you took that job. You’re a true entrepreneur!" and "YES!!! This sounds so much more like you."
All five of these people could see me even as I wandered in the dark.
I think we have to lose sight of ourselves at times so we can remember what it's like to see and be seen.
Recently my chosen sister Tannia brought up betraying ourselves.
With so much ripping me open— grief over Gaza and family loss, financial stress, and general anxiety to name just a few — my weary heart was barely puttering along as my vision got cloudier by the day. Looking for something to save me, I totally betrayed myself.
Quitting didn't come easy. But the part of me that knows I know I know*understood a job couldn't save me because I'm simply not the same Annie who used to work jobs.
I started this business with a vision of being a model to the kids in my life for what's possible. Rooted in that vision and my truth, I'm dreaming up, creating and doing things these days I couldn't have done even a year ago.
I remind clients (and myself) that clarity does not come from thinking.
We have to get out from behind our spreadsheets, journals and altars and go for a damn walk, lay down, stare at the clouds, take a nap, pick up a paintbrush, dance like our lives depends on it!
My friend Octavia says, "The most powerful person in the room is the most rested."
I love to figure shit out, it's literally the skill I built this business on. But getting out of my head, into my body, and resting both was that helped me home.